What Are You Digging Into?

 

A few days ago, I was clearing my emails. I had like 24 unread emails. I cleared all of them but one. I kept clicking the previous button but I still could not find that one unread mail. 

It took almost one hour to click the previous button to find the unread mail with no success.

That 1 unread mail notification still bothered me a lot. But, I realized I was now reading 2018 emails and still had not found the unread email. I was frustrated because I had wasted one hour with no luck. 

It got me thinking about real-life scenarios. There are times, things we have not found closure on, scars that are a reminder of past experiences, and memories will always keep popping. 

I believe it is important to make peace with our past otherwise it will haunt you. But life has taught me, to make peace there are things I would have to face head-on and there are things that I would have to live with the scars because there is nothing much that can be done.

So, what are you digging into? Is it worth it? Will it add any value? Will it make you a better person?

Human beings are restless until everything is fixed and perfect but the reality is, things won't always work how we want them to.

We waste precious moments trying to dig in the past, not in search of answers but pity party.

We try digging into it with the fallacy that we can turn back time but end up getting frustrated.

Sometimes, we dig into things that were never ours to bother with, in the first place. 

What is your unread mail notification?

My time searching for the unread mail made me realize, there are paths better left unknown. I have made peace with the unread mail notification. I will never know what it was because I dug into my emails for the longest time without an answer. I may not reply to an email after maybe 2years.

It does not bother me anymore, not because I am superwoman but because I have realized there is nothing much I can do about it but also it came in with a lesson, I need to read my emails often to avoid the anxiety of digging into mails for hours with no success.

It is the same thing with life. The reason why keep digging into the past is that we felt it was right at that time to blanket the circumstance for later but we forgot about it and years later, it has popped. 

Instead of digging into things years later,  deal with them in the present. Do not wait to dig into the anxiety, pain, and even joy when you notice the notification pop up. You may never get the answer and the joy may be stale.

Choose what to dig into and if it is not worth it make peace with it.

Not everything is worth digging into. Make your choice.

Happy Holidays. See you in 2021.