In The Stillness

 

I think life can be so busy that we forget to be still. I have previously written down on the pain of busyness and how it robs our joy. I have been away from this place because life got busy and well, we all experience writer’s block. I was to write something on finishing strong based on a milestone we achieved as an organization but I am here seated in nature. So I had to reframe and write another article, the power of flexibility comes here.

I know life is happening to a lot of people, if it is not the economy it is a relationship. If not all that, sometimes the skeleton in our closets finds ways to come to life. I can hear the birds chirping, I can see them fly and they look happy. They are flying gracefully. In this stillness, I have sat down with myself and have confirmed my life has been operating on overdrive, the speed at which my mind is racing can easily kill someone and I would stand before the judge and plead guilty. In this case, I am that person.

In this stillness, my soul has been crushed but also mended because I have come to finally understand that even in the busyness, we lose touch with ourselves but I have been humbled by the thought of people who love me. Interestingly, the point of your breaking can be the point of your healing. I am speaking to someone who feels like she is overwhelmed with so many whys and what-ifs. I am speaking to someone wondering when the doors will open because the uncle who said he knows people in the city went silent on you, and 10 years later, you still wait for his call. I am speaking to someone who has lost it all, another transitioning. I speak to someone whose dreams look a little bit far to reach and hanging by the thread. I speak to someone who is trying their best to let go and it is seemingly hard. It can get crazy and it is human to feel worried and anxious. It is human to have a mix of emotions. But, I hope you see how it can be overwhelming that the things that are stealing your joy are sometimes beyond your control. I hope you can learn to let go and let God.

I hope the day breaks for you, and as you wait for it, I hope you realize the small things that bring you joy, the birds, the children’s laughter, the breeze. I hope you have a support system because this goes a long way, there is no greater joy than doing life knowing someone has your back, that when you are in the trenches, they will stretch their hands for you to hold and sometimes they will call you out.

I hope you will be able to sit in the stillness and hear the voice that tells you it is okay that you feel what you feel but you can rise up, the voice that will tell you to stop worrying and give you directions. It is in the stillness of things that we get clarity. Eventually, everything falls into place. I do not know when but I know it does. You are special and God knew you. You are worthy of a life that is still. I hope the battles are won.