In The Meantime

See, our pity party celebrations were here. Yes, we had everything to cry about. The lost job opportunity, the boyfriend who said he needed a one week break but still waiting for him three years later. The friends who stabbed us on our back. Life begins at forty but we had nothing to show off, we were not living in the flashy apartments, no degree, no stable work just some odd jobs that helped in the hand to mouth cycle. Heck, the pain of unfulfilled dreams, plans and vision was too painful. Was there anything to celebrate? Apart from the misfortune and delayed fulfillment of dreams. We had everything planned? Why is it that someone who had no future or so we thought, was the laughing stalk growing up was now seemingly the icon in the community?
The pity party had taken a toll on us, tears had made the cheap make up fade off. And then we had a knock. The knock from reality who came in calmly yet in a firm way.
"You are where you are, and that is the reality.
Reality is when you understand another's journey isn't your journey. You have your own path to lead. You have your goals to achieve. Some of you are forcing yourselves in other's destination. You claim you must drive in a Toyota yet you are destined to drive a Ferrari. You're too big for a tuktuk yet you want to force yourself in. You want to alight at a bus stop that was clearly not meant for you."
Heck, those words pierced our souls deeper. This was just a stupid pity party that had no purpose, That had inflicted more wounds. It was time to stop it, time to break the cycle.
Not where I am but in the meantime I will make self discovery.
In the meantime, I will understand my vision.
In the meantime, I will love to the fullest. I will not wait when I will be chopping my money to enjoy life.
In the meantime, I will find joy in the season. See no season lasts forever, but there are lessons to learn.
In the meantime, I will prune the friends list, weed off the frenemies and pluck them out off my life.
In the meantime, I will unleash all the potential in me.
In the meantime, I will live.
In the meantime..........